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Tuesday, October 31, 2006

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Man, life really just blows sometimes. (Oh! The profundity!)

When you're having fertility issues, it doesn't take a whole lot to throw the thing in your face and send you into big heaping piles of despair. I mean, you walk down the street of a major city and you're going to see happy people pushing newborns. It just happens.

It happens when you've just found out you lost a baby. It happens when you're having trouble figuring out your next step and you're feeling pretty raw about it. And it happens on holidays.

Like Halloween.

I've always kind of liked Halloween. Not for myself; I loathe having to come up with a costume and I have no use for the holiday as it applies to me. But I like seeing little kids in costume. It's great. Who doesn't like seeing small versions of Superman and The Flash walking down the street next to a fairy princess?

Well, it turns out that, this year, I don't. I had some errands to run on the Upper West Side this afternoon and, as I walked from 86th to 96th, I was bombarded by parents with their one-year-olds dressed as chubby little lions and pumpkins and clowns. And I remembered again that, if things hadn't gone wrong, we'd have a tiny one to dress up ourselves right now.

I'm not about to jump off a building or anything. I'm not--I swear--trolling for sympathy. It's just that you can go for days (weeks, even) and feel fine about things and then you're in the wrong mood and you see something and it hits you.

Boy, Christmas is going to be fucking awesome, huh?

posted by Joe # 5:56 PM

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I'm so sorry. That really, really sucks.

# posted by

TwinsGoddess : 9:47 AM

I feel for you, dude. We're struggling with fertility issues as well, and are starting up the process of adoption. I feel fine about that, overall, but we did see some kids out last night, and it did pique my already potent natural inclination toward melancholy.

I've little to add in content, even less to offer in comfort. I wish you well.

# posted by

thelyamhound : 12:43 PM

Lyam, thanks for the sentiment. Keep me posted on how the adoption process goes.

ESG, thanks. Where've you been? Nothing new on your blog fer weeks now.

# posted by

Joe : 7:24 PM

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		Tuesday, October 31, 2006 Warning: Self-Indulgent Wallowing! Do Not Read! Man, life really just blows sometimes. (Oh! The profundity!) When you're having fertility issues, it doesn't take a whole lot to throw the thing in your face and send you into big heaping piles of despair. I mean, you walk down the street of a major city and you're going to see happy people pushing newborns. It just happens. It happens when you've just found out you lost a baby. It happens when you're having trouble figuring out your next step and you're feeling pretty raw about it. And it happens on holidays. Like Halloween. I've always kind of liked Halloween. Not for myself; I loathe having to come up with a costume and I have no use for the holiday as it applies to me. But I like seeing little kids in costume. It's great. Who doesn't like seeing small versions of Superman and The Flash walking down the street next to a fairy princess? Well, it turns out that, this year, I don't. I had some errands to run on the Upper West Side this afternoon and, as I walked from 86th to 96th, I was bombarded by parents with their one-year-olds dressed as chubby little lions and pumpkins and clowns. And I remembered again that, if things hadn't gone wrong, we'd have a tiny one to dress up ourselves right now. I'm not about to jump off a building or anything. I'm not--I swear--trolling for sympathy. It's just that you can go for days (weeks, even) and feel fine about things and then you're in the wrong mood and you see something and it hits you. Boy, Christmas is going to be fucking awesome, huh? posted by Joe # 5:56 PM Comments: I'm so sorry. That really, really sucks. # posted by TwinsGoddess : 9:47 AM I feel for you, dude. We're struggling with fertility issues as well, and are starting up the process of adoption. I feel fine about that, overall, but we did see some kids out last night, and it did pique my already potent natural inclination toward melancholy. I've little to add in content, even less to offer in comfort. I wish you well. # posted by thelyamhound : 12:43 PM Lyam, thanks for the sentiment. Keep me posted on how the adoption process goes. ESG, thanks. Where've you been? Nothing new on your blog fer weeks now. # posted by Joe : 7:24 PM Post a Comment << Home		Links The Conversation Special Productions Izzle Pfaff Freida Bee Sometimes I Just Talk Alisa and the Stuff Alisa Does Tuna Girl Defective Yeti The Incurable Insomniac The Savvy, The Extreme and The Idealist Caballito del Diablo The Ambivalence of Open Spaces Bug-Eyed Blog Whiskeymarie Version 53 Things I've Noticed (S)wine: ShortLeanCuts Out of Tune Missives from the Beige Sister of Hairshirt Apostrophe Abuse Jonestown Tobacco Brunette The Public Intellectual That's Why Archives July 2004 August 2004 September 2004 October 2004 November 2004 December 2004 January 2005 February 2005 March 2005 April 2005 May 2005 June 2005 July 2005 August 2005 September 2005 October 2005 November 2005 December 2005 January 2006 February 2006 March 2006 April 2006 May 2006 June 2006 July 2006 August 2006 September 2006 October 2006 November 2006 December 2006 January 2007 February 2007 March 2007 April 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 March 2011 April 2011